I just joined the LYL Creators’ Guild on Facebook this week, and today I took the opportunity to look back over some of my previous posts before taking the plunge and sharing the link. So far, no-one has seen my blog (as far as I am aware) and the only comment I have received was from myself 🙂 (I liked the blog 🙂 ).
As I’ve said a couple of times, for me, this is all work in progress. I don’t know what my passion is. I don’t have an amazing idea in my head out of which I could create a new life or a business. I just know that, for the next 20 years, I don’t want to do be doing what I have been doing for the past 20 years. Not that it was a wrong choice (in fact, it was never a choice, just a series of decisions, choices and accidents that led me to where I am now). But a change now has to be a conscious choice – otherwise, I will just continue to drift into my 50s, 60s, 70s. Hopefully I’ll be lucky enough to see all these ages, but I want them to be happy, creative and relatively stressfree ages. I want to actually live them.
The book that I mentioned in a previous post was The Unlikely Pilgrimage of Harold Fry. It is well worth a read if you don’t know it. It is both a simple and a complicated book in that it involves a journey in the real world (as you can guess from the title) but also a journey – and a very uncomfortable one at that – inside Harold. We also follow his wife’s journey too, even though she mainly stays at home. They both visit and revisit places they had hidden or never faced. The part that resonated with me most was Harold leaving behind everything and putting himself out there, way beyond his comfort zone, and allowing himself to make contact and connections with people, with the world. Nice people, awful people, helpful people, unaware people. He used a lot of acceptance in his journey, just letting things happen and not trying to control things.
As a fairly organised person, who likes her routines, this liberation from self just seems amazing to me. And one big lesson for me is that you can – and should – put your trust in other people, and not shut yourself away or try and control things too much. The experience might not always be pleasant, but if you open yourself to acceptance, then the experience is likely to be rich. And it makes me think of LYL’s advice to spend time with people who inspire you. To find them, I will need to get out of my “here” and go somewhere else – in the world, or in me.
There has to be a moment to jump. I’m not there yet, but maybe one day …